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Doubting God (Part II of Many)

I wished the words of prayer
would come
Full and resounding
Bursting with the confetti
Of a faith of celebration
A triumphant declaration
A reverent adoration
Something
Anything


But tonight,
Despite the stuttering syllables
Tip-toeing on my tongue
All that emerged
Was the smallest mumble—

“Yes. Please God, Yes.”


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